The Shoe Fits

So, I lately (like the whole month of September) I have been soooo horrible with my diet. Eating out, eating beef, eating pretty much whatever I want. (Bad Thasanee, Bad!) So today as I recover from some food poisoning (yea..the good bacteria in yogurt became bad bacteria…) I was trying to figure out why the heck I always lose myself and just eat. I am in the same boat as Caity because I am such an emotional eater, bored eater, eat cause its fun..type of person. So I complied a short list of ways to prevent myself from indulging..essentially to Learn Self Control.

1. Everytime I think about eating something I shouldn’t eat (like cake, cookies, burgers, etc) I will think of him.

I do not want to look like him. Even the thought that I could…scares me. You may laugh but there are people out there who look like that…shivers…

2. Everytime I feel a little weak I’ll think about my wedding, especially my dress because when I got it in the mail, it was to big. I want to keep it that way. Even if I have to go through all that drama again to return it, at least I know I’m returning it because its too BIG not too SMALL.

3. Think about me being pregnant at my size. As shallow as it sounds, I want to look like Angelina Jolie when I’m preggo..She had TWINS and she still looked hot.

C’mon..who doesn’t want to be preggo and still look like hat?

4. Think about the risk of diabetes in my family. All I have to do is think of my grandmother who has detiorated very quickly from complications to diabetes in less than ten years. She has renel failure, an amputated leg and is progressively getting worse. And she isn’t even 60 yet. I don’t want to end up like her.. at all.

5. Think of how healthy, active and wonderful I will be if I don’t stray. I mean c’mon, maybe one day I want to run in a triathalon. If Jennifer Lopez can do it, then I definitely need to do it. Cause she’s cool (wait..does she still have a coolness factor..speaking of which she’s another hot babe who was pregnant with twins…damn you woman!)

So, while trying to keep it light but serious too, I really need to find the self control. If anything, just so I can add more years to my life and be able to be there for my children when they are born..

and no not the disco inferno. I am working on a project with Ashley and with help from Cole at the moment and because of that I might be a bit neglectful in my duties as webmistress of Albeyo. But fear not! I won’t be gone too long

Thank you all who commented. You really made me feel better I know I gotta be patient, and sometimes I just am not

All day I’ve been mad at Marcus. I can’t pinpoint why but I know I am. It’s kind of ruining the day for us. I wanted to go out to eat with him but I’m just mad..about something.. This morning, he kind of made me feel like crap cause I was making us run late, and I know I do that but I was trying to make excuses (cause that’s what I do) and he just got really mean. He tried to apologize when I picked him up from work, like 8 hours later but I kind of blew him off and have been doing it since then. gawd what’s wrong with me? Why can’t I just be content and happy for once? I’ve always got to start stuff…

Anyways, I’ll post my first friday five! w00t!

1. When did someone last break something of yours?
   Um, lets see.. Usually I am breaking the stuff. I can’t honestly remember.
2. When did you last play hackysack, if ever?
   I don’t play hackysack, sorry.
3. What was your most dramatic haircut like?
   When I got it short to my shoulders. I’ve always had hair down to my bra strap, and I quite like my hair short thank you
4. Hacking is basically breaking through the security that protects a computer or a website. What’s the closest you’ve come to doing something similar in real life?
   The farthest I’ve gone is just thinking about how people do it. I’m too special to have the patience to learn that sort of thing.
5. In the world of stand-up comedy, a hack is a comic who steals jokes from other comics. Have you ever known a hack in your own field?
   Not really, but it’s a really worried about thing in science especially for things like patents.