and good riddance to this week! It’s kinda funny that this week was my busiest yet went by SO FAST. I ran experiments all week and tutored well into the night. Also helping Marcus with his job hunting. Whew takes a lot out of ya!

Oh by the way….

MARCUS GOT A JOB!

He will be a store manager at a local business in town. I am SO proud of him and so very happy. The downside is that he will be gone for about 3 months for 5 days a week. It’s not horrible, but I’m use to him being here with me everyday. I guess I am a bit Marcus spoiled. BUT YAY!

I also didn’t do so well on my goals. I did eat rather healthy, but I didn’t walk everyday. We only went out on Monday. But it’s a start. It just sucks when I have tutoring very soon after I get home. Plus it’s getting REALLY cold here. But since Marcus got his job, we can join the gym again. I was really motivated when I had the gym too.

This weekend is going to be CRAZY. I’m going out tonight, in the morn (Tequila Sunrise baby!) and then tomrrow night. I sound all hardcore, but I am sure I am going to chicken out on Saturday. Plus since Marcus will be gone next week, I’ll definitely want to spend as much time with HIM.

I’m done. I can’t even concentrate!

So, as I may have mentioned before, I have a conference to go to in Boston in January. All travel expenses are covered which is awesome. The not so awesome part is.. I am TERRIFIED of flying. I’ll get myself pumped up and ready to deal with it and then all of a sudden freak out. I have tried everything, classes, mental meditation, drugs, nothing works. So my method of transportation to Boston you say? via Amtrak. At this moment, I don’t mind too much the long travel, I actually kind of like it. I get to stop in Chicago, Washington D.C. and of course Boston. The whole trip there and back takes two days each way. Again, I don’t mind the time because I reiterate, I am TERRIFIED to fly. It never use to be that way and I definitely hope I can get over it soon as I really want to go to Thailand next summer, I just can’t bring myself to do it this time. It’s going to be a high travel time, snow delays probably (it is at the very beginning of January) so I have been telling myself that there are all these reasons except the real reason. I break down in tears when people tell me I’ll be fine or give me statistics. Trust me, I understand the stats and I get it. Forever when I was young I wanted to be a pilot! I loved flying. I don’t know if subconsciougly 9/11 is what is keeping me from flying because I flew for the first time since 9/11 when I went to college. I had flew a lot before then but after, we never really needed to go anywhere by plane. I flew again when I was at school and came home for a visit. I don’t know what happened but it was since then that I began to panic. I only fly if its really necessary. This is why since I don’t have to pay for my trip out there, I am willing to do this. Ugh. In my mind, I know it’s unreasonable for me to not fly, but at the same token, its that same mind that is making me almost hyperventilate as I type this. I’ve missed fun trips due to my fear. *Sigh*

I need therapy for sure on this one. Or a hypnotist. That’d be awesome if I can forget all this anxiety I have over flying.

I need a hobby. One that I can do just sitting down at the T.V. or while idling waiting for something to happen…I use to know how to crochet, but I have no clue how to start it up again. I guess I could look at some crochet websites where they have videos.. Caity has kind of inspired me to look down that route I think I will give that a try.. I have been interesting in learning how to make friendship like bracelets. I have some of the materials to start. Maybe I’ll do that I don’t know I just REALLY want a non-computer hobby. Speaking of which, I have a photoblog I have started but I am lacking a.k.a slacking on taking pictures. I am horrible at remembering when to have my camera etc. But I plan to be good this week!

I was working on my wedding invitiations and realized that it’s going to take me a long time to make them. Good thing I have everything I need now! haha! But hopefully they turn out looking okay because I don’t want them to look like crap! Other than that, I really am enjoying doing the little random things for my wedding, like response cards, details for my attendents, bossing my mom around…O_O Well she has to give me two addresses that I need and she’s taken forever to get them to me! But it’s okay, she promised she’d get them to me by tonight. *waiting* Yeah… I still love her.

Well I guess some “exciting” news for today is that I finally found out that I am officially a ChaCha guide! Marcus and I have a bet to see who can make the most money by next Sunday. Whoever loses has to take the winner on a date paid for by the loser. It’s on like Donkey Kong now! I figure since he likes competitions and I hate losing, we’ll make a pretty penny together It kinda sucks that all these venues of making extra money are coming now, when we really need the base pay and can’t afford to have “extra” money. Hopefully that will change by the end of this month and we can make extra to help with the wedding and stuff. Once we both land into good jobs, I want to invest a lot of the money I have made from tutoring and Chacha into a savings account, like a C.D. or something, to save for when I have children. Great thing I am with the bank I have, they are one of the safest banks right now

Well I think that’s enough about nothing. Till tomorrow!

Uneventful. That describes my life right now. I’m still waiting on ChaCha to give me the go ahead to start making money.  I have a goal of getting about $400 this month with the tutoring. Maybe more, but that is my overall goal. I have two more weeks to do it. I just need to float more and that will get me hours.

Today I went on a hike with Marcus which was about 2.5 miles and half of it was uphill and I hurt my leg kinda and now it’s really sore. But I feel great overall! …except I just ate two cookies and two reeses. Yea..but I felt really good about doing the hike. Tomorrow we are going to go on a smaller trail and do that and next week do the one we did again. With that, I kind of have been thinking about some of my goals for this week. I figure I have way to many goals that seem so endless so I should start small and work my way up. So here are my goals for this week! As I do them, I’ll cross em off. I’m going to post them on my sidebar for all to see!

1. Go on an hour walk everyday (M,T,W,Th,F)
2. Eat under 2,000 calories everyday
3. Finish mailing out save the dates
4. Organize my desk…for the umptenth time
5. go to bed by 10PM
6. Wake up by 7AM

I think that these are reasonable goals, and lets see how I do!