so after getting overly frustrated last night, I called it quits on building a new theme. So this morning, after some subtle inspiration (*read Marcus) I started to work again on a theme. This time, I think I’m satisfied. I’m quite impressed with myself only because I stuck it through and even when things got all messy, I just tried my best to clean it up. The flower photo above is one that I did so that makes me happy that I can incorporate my own photography.

Speaking of which, I told Marcus a really great valentine’s day present would be to buy me a new camera

But alas, while doing the theme stuff, I thought it might get my mind off the wedding business, and, of course, it has not. I don’t even know how to go about explaining it. It’s truly a loss to me. I know it’s not like I’m never getting married, but it sure feels that way right now. And the sucky part: I have to pick up my dress this weekend. Oh life. stab me in the eye.

I still have other projects to work on, such as healthyme.albeyo.net, the-shoe-fits.net, and renewed-revu but hopefully I can complete those tasks by the end of the week. I just really need things to focus on and hopefully these three sites can do it for me.

Off to wallow in my cramps. owe

Sometimes I wish I could go back to the days when I was six and my biggest
problem was what kind of dress to put on my Barbie’s or whether or not I had
enough Lego’s to build a fort.- Unknown

Yesterday I had to make perhaps the most difficult choice of my life thus far: Postpone my wedding, which is a month from now. Money was the biggest issue by far. I had begun to sacrifice aspects of my wedding that I absolutely wanted to be included due to money and because of that, the wedding became something I didn’t like. Not to mention, since Marcus doesn’t have a job yet, it made it really hard to continue on with the wedding when we had bills and rent to be paid. It’s the biggest decision I’ve made and I am somewhat content with it right now. Of course as the “original” day gets closer, I’ll probably become more and more depressed but hopefully I can manage to think positively in the upcoming months.

The good things that have come from it is that, I can plan my wedding, as I want and not have to make it feel rushed or downsized because of money. Marcus and I are quite determined to save every last bit of money, because we don’t want to go through this again. The upsides also include that I have my dress (though It will suck if I lose weight..), my ring, some of my accessories, wedding favors, etc. Plus we are possibly moving the location to Phoenix or up here in Flagstaff and hopefully I can thoroughly enjoy the planning rather than become stressed and daunted by it.

With that said, I hope that I can pick up the pieces and the best part of it all is that I still have Marcus. Oh and we are still going on our cruise

So I am trying to work on two projects and hopefully I can finish them by the end of this weekend. Last night I had a surge of internet inspiration so hopefully I can win that back!