So prior to almost one week ago, I took a nap everyday and those naps lasted about 1.5-2 hours and sometimes even 3 hours. I hadn’t taken a nap since last week and decided to take one yesterday. I slept 3 hours! Does anyone have this problem? I just don’t understand why I can’t wake up!

And speaking of sleeping, even when I get about 7-9 hours of sleep, I still cannot bring myself to get out of bed. Any suggestions about getting my ass out of bed?

But otherwise, the last few weeks have been easy going. Well I can’t lie. They really haven’t. We are having the worst time financially. I feel like I should be way more stressed and upset then I am now, but (and maybe it’s the pills talking) but I feel interestingly calm. WHY. Who knows. But I know one thing: I hope we don’t get evicted =/ We will see what happens. We have tried to trim where we can, but it doesn’t seem to be working in our favor. Everywhere we turn, there’s some kind of money due. Not to mention, we owe $200 to two individuals and have no idea when we can pay them back. I am really hoping that I get awarded Summer Financial Aid very soon so I can at least budget that in. It will make life SO much better. Until then, we literally have NO money. Ugh. At least I have other things to keep my mind busy. *snicker*

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So I had thought I’d take a hiatus for awhile because my life has definitely been open to a new chapter, but I really think that I do like blogging, I just needed some rest after the hectic month that was March. Wow it flew by though!

Obviously, I hope everyone knows I’m married now I can honestly say it doesn’t feel different one bit. The biggest change I see is that Marcus and I have a great time calling each other wife and husband. We honestly get a kick out of it. As I begin to change my last name, it’s also taking a hit on me that I am “grown up”. I remember being 18 when my aunt and mom would say “You’re not Grown yet…”. And now, I can at least be treated as an adult in their eyes (albeit some drawbacks …) and in others. I am finally finding my way through this world and making a name for myself, my new self as a Mrs. Of course, with marriage comes some pressure (mostly unintentional pressure) of having children. Really the pressure comes from me and my own fears/wants and it’s really the biggest thing taking a toll on us. Of course, I want to have children (and if I had my way, we’d be tring to conceive right now), but it’s the timing and thought process that is making me hestitant. What happens if we have children? Can we still do some of the things we enjoy? Can we still enjoy vacations? Of course, in the long run, yes, we could, but it’s really daunting to think that perhaps we never will again. I don’t know. Any thoughts?

But other than that, I’ve been feeling a bit depressed lately. I’ve finally managed the courage to go to the doctor and talk to them about my anxiety and depression. I never thought I had a “problem” but it’s so persistant that I figure going to the doctor couldn’t hurt right? and it could be so many other things that are affecting me, including the lack of money, my weight, and the aforementioned regarding pregnancy. But we will see. Luckily, I have a husband who is very supportive and even said he’d go with me to my first appointment.

I love my husband