I never cease come up with random blog titles. Sometimes they describe my mood or sometimes I can only think of a certain phrase and so I use it.
The last two weeks have been crazy! I’m basically working 40 hours a week (really more than that). I literally get home, stay up for about 2-3 hours then go to bed. I think the earliest I’ve gone to bed is 9:30! That’s early for me! But it’s worth it, given what I am doing (camp coordinator for a girl’s camp – check out the article they wrote about us! I’m in it). It’s been great to be busy and have the weeks go by fast because I am so ready to start school again. The closer it gets the closer I am to being able to teach!
Lately, my mind has been in spacey-space land. I have forgotten things, spaced out in front of people and totally freaked out about something so random. I think that the stress of work is bearing down on me. Luckily my youngest sister goes back home this weekend so that will be one less stress. I really enjoyed my time with her though; we’ve definitely grown close again.
As of late, I’ve been thinking about the sad state of affairs regarding my friends, both online and off. I am very concerned that my lack of motivation to keep communications open will result in my being friendless. I’ve also been thinking about how I “long” (because is it really longing?) for a guy friend. As odd and possible assinine as that sounds, I’ve found that my closest friends have been males. And all those male friends have been lost in some way or another. One passed away and the other just started to be a jerk. So I wonder, if I am not meant to have close guy friends or any friends at all. It’s a depressing thought but it’s something that I have been pondering. It makes sense when I think about it but now writing about it, I feel even more confused as ever.
Well one last thing, a little rant if you will. [rant]I am getting really tired of reading the comments in news sites or blogs that are so ridiculous it makes me really doubt the state of the human condition. ARGH! [/rant]
Till Next Time.
I'm sorry to hear that you're having trouble keeping up with your friends. However, you're doing a lot of work and influencing young girls' lives. I think that should get a pass amongst your friends perhaps? I know that when I'm busy, all of my friends suddenly need me at once. I don't know if they purposely wait for that moment or if they genuinely need me. I've stopped trying to differentiate the two. I hope you can get some rest. Don't give up on male friends just yet!
Aw, I'm sorry that you are having trouble keeping in contact with your friends. I do the same thing to myself and I end up being upset that I have nobody to talk to. There really are a lot of people out there who would hang out with or talk to me, but I never initiate anything. Just try to put yourself out there more. <3
PS: I love that book.