So I am unusually chipper about this Monday. Why you ask? My sister is going back home (love her as I may, she is a handful), my parents are officially moved (two hours away!) and I finally get to be alone with my husband! Yah!

So, we managed to catnap my cat, Artemis. He is the love of my life! We’ve had him since he was barely able to walk straight. He has the most beautiful kitty eyes! I am definitely looking forward to snapping some photos of him. (Oh yea did I mention I lost my camera at Six Flags in June?…). We also have another kitty, Ashton. My sister conned me (it wasn’t so difficult) and he is by far the cutest little thing. I absolutely love cats and my dogs are definitely getting along with him so that’s always nice. School will be starting again and I am unsure how I feel about that. I’m excited but dreading it, yet excited because it’s one step closer to being able to teach.

Well I am at least doing better about blogging. sorta. ha.

TTFN

So I had thought I’d take a hiatus for awhile because my life has definitely been open to a new chapter, but I really think that I do like blogging, I just needed some rest after the hectic month that was March. Wow it flew by though!

Obviously, I hope everyone knows I’m married now I can honestly say it doesn’t feel different one bit. The biggest change I see is that Marcus and I have a great time calling each other wife and husband. We honestly get a kick out of it. As I begin to change my last name, it’s also taking a hit on me that I am “grown up”. I remember being 18 when my aunt and mom would say “You’re not Grown yet…”. And now, I can at least be treated as an adult in their eyes (albeit some drawbacks …) and in others. I am finally finding my way through this world and making a name for myself, my new self as a Mrs. Of course, with marriage comes some pressure (mostly unintentional pressure) of having children. Really the pressure comes from me and my own fears/wants and it’s really the biggest thing taking a toll on us. Of course, I want to have children (and if I had my way, we’d be tring to conceive right now), but it’s the timing and thought process that is making me hestitant. What happens if we have children? Can we still do some of the things we enjoy? Can we still enjoy vacations? Of course, in the long run, yes, we could, but it’s really daunting to think that perhaps we never will again. I don’t know. Any thoughts?

But other than that, I’ve been feeling a bit depressed lately. I’ve finally managed the courage to go to the doctor and talk to them about my anxiety and depression. I never thought I had a “problem” but it’s so persistant that I figure going to the doctor couldn’t hurt right? and it could be so many other things that are affecting me, including the lack of money, my weight, and the aforementioned regarding pregnancy. But we will see. Luckily, I have a husband who is very supportive and even said he’d go with me to my first appointment.

I love my husband

So I am officially announcing that I am getting married (back on again) this Saturday March 21. This is going to be a low key wedding with very few friends and family attending. Marcus and I realized the best thing for us would be to get married on the date that we want and that we have been planning for a year. We are using our non-refundable deposit to pay for the least expensive wedding.

With that said, I’d LOVE for anyone who wants to, to watch this wedding live on the internet. Just go to www.littlechapel.com on March 21st at 12:30 PM PST (PST is three hours behind EST, and 2 behind MST?) and click on Guests > Make sure you are on March 21 and then scroll down and find “McGuffey…” and viola you should be able to watch! I am trying to get where I can have it playing for more than just the one time but try to be there at the time designated so you can watch!

This will be my last post until after our honeymoon, so I hope you all can watch and I will definitely post TONS of pictures and TONS of blogging when I get back!

So, Marcus started his new job on Monday. From what I hear he really loves it. I’m glad too, only we found out he will be working only part time for a while. So we are both planning on getting a second job when we return from our cruise. Hopefully it works out and I hope I don’t burn myself out either. which I have a habit of doing anyways. We’ll see. It’ll be nice to have extra money.

By the way, I just want to clear things up: I am not pregnant. Apparently I never realized that people would come to that conclusion! lol So I just decided to say that NO I’m not pregnant but I sure wish I was …

Don’t worry, you will all know in due time! It probably won’t be a surprise and to tell you the truth it’s probably one of those times where people are like “Really? That was the BIG surprise?..” but it’s exciting for me and definitely something you all will know very soon!

Other than that, it got a bit stressful thinking about money. We have contemplated cancelling our cruise, but honestly, this thing was paid for in full back in January. My grandma said she wouldn’t talk to me if I didn’t go on it!! But I promise to take a lots of pictures =D