Well, I am here writing this post, even though I don’t have a theme that I want up or the “reinventness” that I wanted. But here I am! Writing a post courtesy of Daydreamz Message Board about things I hide from people!
It took time and thought about what I would post about and I feel that I have to just write about what my first thought was: How I hide myself from people. I am one of many people out there with low self-esteem and absurd lack of confidence. I’ve always tried to be open and honest with people, and I usually am, but I also hide myself. I hide from making new friends, hide from trying new things and taking advantage of new opportunities. I’ve now hid behind motherhood, as my excuse to continue to hide myself. I sometimes also hide behind my true feelings and never make them as public as I’d like. You can even say I hide behind my blog, though lately there hasn’t been much to hide behind!
One of the biggest things I do, is hide behind my own advice. I am very quick to offer support and advice to everyone around me. Boy troubles? I’ve got a few words. Weight/Body Image problems? I’ll offer my support and figure out how to help you. But when it comes back to me being able to actually take that advice for myself, I turn it away and pretend like that’s the advice I follow. It’s kind of hard to not hide from yourself and others. Sometimes, life is just wired so weird that it has to happen that way. I know that I can admit to this, but can I change it? The pessimist in me says no, but the optimist in others say “Sure! Go for it! You can be happy!”. Time will only tell I suppose and until then, I am still hiding.
